boys...sometimes they can just be a pain...he had asked me about the person i look to for someone i would like my future husband to be....i said my dad...he was like why...why not look to Christ....my dad is an awesome example of what i want to look for in a guy...why can't some people accept that...i see Christ in my dad so why can't he be a good example....i just don't understand...he then went on and smashed down my view of life and how i live....after awhile...i was listening on and off...i really wasn't meaning to...but when someone won't accept my views why should i accept his....its just something i do....i got mad at him tonight....he kept saying he was using his life as an example for what he was telling me....he doesn't know how i was raised...he doesn't know my dad...so how can he tell me who and what to look for...oh my roommate and another friend could tell there was something wrong because the conversation was a bit one-sided...anyways....later while talking to me roommate about this and boys and how they can be such a pain....one thing came up was who does he look to as an example for what he wants in a wife...does he actually look to the same person he is telling me to or does he look toward someone else....i would like to know the answer to that someday...maybe one day i will...i hope this gets squared away soon because it would be bad if this is hanging over my head this summer....i don't know how to explain how i am feeling right now...sometimes i wish i could because that would make life a whole lot easier....but life is not meant to be hard....back to the whole boyfriend/girlfriend relationship thing...people look to different people for the characteristics they would want in a significant other...my first thought is never look to Christ....it is not what would Jesus do.....its more along the lines of what i know now...like what others have gone through....i look to my parents....i look to the elderly i know (i love talking with a certain couple in my church at home)....they all give me advice...even my roommate and some good friends do...why should i care what he says...i don't know...normally I don't care what people say that i don't know very well...why is this one different...that is something i am still trying to figure out

What do you guys think?? Who should we look to for an example?

I love summer but i also don't like it....summer is the time for sports especially soccer and baseball (2 of my favorite sports)...baseball and soccer seasons have just started...and i am glued to baseball especially...i like to keep up with baseball...maybe my summer roommate and i have the opportunity to go to some ranger games with her boyfriend...i think it will be a lot of fun...one thing i don't like about summers is that its a time of separation from my friends that will be returning to school and the fall...and a lot of good byes to those that are graduating or are not returning in the fall....I have some really good friends graduating this semester...hopefully i can keep in touch with them as they venture out into this world...i am also happy that they have achieved their goal of getting a college education...

anyways...watch out baseball world...oakland is the team this year...they are playing tonight...i would reccommend watching it

one thing that has been bothering me lately is fake people...my roommate has also been struggling with this issue of fake people ....i am not to fond of them...i just do not like it when someone talks about being a Christian and how to live, but they do not follow it with actions in their own lives....i am the type of person that will not listen to someone if they do not offer their life as an example for me to see....i have been talking to someone a school in nc about my trip this summer to indonesia....the way he talks reminds me of the various fake people i know here on campus....i told him this tonight (we are very honest with each other)....he took it a lot better than i thought he would...i told him when i actually get to interact with him in person things could be different...i have to wait like a month for that...thats hard to believe...i am so looking forward to it and i am excited about it....anyways...from talking with him tonight...just reminded me of how fake people can be....i don't understand how people can tell others how to behave and live and they don't do it themselves....for me....i won't tell someone else they can't do something if i am doing it....i will fix that area of my life before i tell others...i will try to give them suggestions on how to live...i won't tell them specifically what to do....but that is just me...others are entitled to their opinions....when interacting with me or talking to me...please don't be fake

a question was raised today that i have never been asked before...."if i ever acquire a boyfriend, how would i respond to him doing almost everything for me?"...i was like...i am very independent and i like to do things on my own....its been hard for my since coming here to have guys open doors or even be nice.....coming from california this was a drastic change..i am somewhat getting used to it....i hate it when a guy goes out of his way to open the door for me or to be nice to me...if they get to the door first, i don't mind them holding it open for me...if i get there first let me open it....going on dates, i would expect to pay for myself especially if i have a job and he doesn't, going places i would expect us to switch off who is driving, if he had a car....i know there are other things we talked about...but that is all i can remember at this unhumane hour of 1:30....it seems so much later than 1:30....anyways...its off to get ready for my softball games later today....cya